Baby Fever

I've actually had baby fever for awhile now. Every time I thought I was with someone I could have another baby with, everything fell apart. It makes me wonder if I'm not meant to have another one, or if waiting for the right guy isn't the way to go. Unfortunately, I don't even know if I could conceive. Maybe I'm being selfish, but I've gotten to the point that I'm kinda like that movie "The Backup Plan" and with my luck, that's what would happen to me LOL! I'd get artificially inseminated and THEN I'd meet the man of my dreams. Yeah right, I don't even have that kinda luck. Ok, seriously, my biological time clock is ticking. I don't want to think about having kids after I'm 35, that's my cut off. So the question still remains, do I wait for Mr. Right, or say screw it and do something else about it? Or, do I just be happy that I have a wonderful, healthy child already and forget about another baby? I'm so lost on this one. Plus the fact that every time I go off my birth control pills, I don't seem to get ovulation back. The last time I tried, I broke out horribly and found out that I had cysts on my ovaries. The only answer was to go back on bcp. Maybe I need a new doctor? I dunno, just kind of ranting.